Here Comes da Judge*

insecurity 1767736 640I am feeling bitter and resentful. That puts me out of alignment with my value of forgiveness, so I know I have some work to do. Mind if I do it here?

It's all about judgment, really. Yours and mine, both. 

See, I currently get a lot of kudos for my striving to recover from myriad adverse childhood experiences (ACEs), including sexual abuse, parental alcoholism, and verbal/emotional abuse. Yet, I've been striving for more than 30 years and rarely heard this kind of praise before.

What's the difference now? This phase of recovery is changing my body's size and shape. 

Kind of pisses me off.

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Rugless No More

rug woven ragHow many times in your life have you experienced the sudden fall from a metaphoric rug being pulled from under you? That expression is a vivid one. We can all envision the slipping, stumbling, staggering suddenness of stability ripped away. Sometimes it's stability of financial resources that is lost, as when a job unexpectedly ends. Somtimes it's stability of emotional resources, as when a key relationship ends. 

Sometimes, in these falls, stability of self-concept is lost. There's a sense of shifting to a parallel universe, where people are suddenly not who you thought they were. Sometimes, it feels as if identity is the rug that is pulled. 

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It Hurts Every Time...Until it Doesn't

headache 1910649 640No matter how often it happens, whether the last time was 5 years ago or 5 minutes ago, it hurts every time.

I want but am thwarted. I need but am frustrated. I ask and am refused. I try and fail. I strive, reach, hope...and am disappointed.

Martin Luther King, Jr. said, "We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope." How do we do that?

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Recipe for Joyful Marriage

laughter 775062 640I'm not married, so you might not trust my insights here. Still, I have been married, for almost 20 years, so I do have some experience. More importanty, my former partner is, today, among my three closest friends. Can you say that about an ex? Mine knows me better than anyone else on the planet, not counting myself (cuz there ain't nobody knows as much about me as I know).

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Hey Control Freak! Yeah, you!

control 2633861 640If one person in your life has told you you're a control freak, you might not really be one.

If 3 or more persons have labeled you this way, then maybe you should be listening. Six or more? Save this link to read later. 10+? Stop what you're doing right now and read this blog post.

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"You Like Me! You Really Like Me!"

smile 2946267 640For a long time, I found it mysterious that people liked me. My sexual abuse history had taught me that there was something fundamentally wrong with me. So, why would anyone like me? They did but I found that suspicious. I sort of lived by that Groucho Marx motto that I wouldn't want to join any club that would have me as a member.

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Midnight Train to Torture

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There's a train platform, beyond the known, upon which you may have stood. Similar to that platform for Harry Potter's train to Hogwarts, it exists only for those with special access. We gather there, tickets long crumpled in sweaty hands, waiting for the Midnight Train to Torture. Not dreaming, but awake, we ride the tracks of very special memories: those of bewildered pain. 

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You Don't Own Me

freedom mountaintopWith love and respect for Lesley Gore and her wonderful, powerful lyrics, I want to talk about another meaning of this statement from the title of her song. I mean, sure, don't tell me what to say or do, and don't try to change me. I'd say those limits are fundamental in any relationship. 

Don't should all over me, for sure. Can you take it one step further and speak to me from the assumption that I am someone of equal power?

Uh-oh. Now I went and said that nasty word...power. 

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DO Be Needy

baby adult handsI am absolutely certain that 99.9% of interpersonal issues and drama in our relationships can be ultimately traced to one cause: wanting people to be different from how they actually are. Included in that percentage is all those times that we want people to stop behaving in ways that WE actually behave, too. What if we could all just relax a little, and see and accept people for all of who they are? What if we could each just let others be? 

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